I am afraid of everything
Of tomatoes and potatoes
How they can’t make up their minds
Of how my town is going to shit
Thanks to gangs with their pants too big
That kill because they want to,
Because they can, because it’s fun
Of how much hair that one guy has
Of how little my dad has
How one day I might just lose all my hair
Even though I am a woman
Afraid of music that gives me headaches
Like Little Wayne, and Miley Cryrus
Of how people have forgotten of the classics
And how people no longer write songs
But music meant for pornos
Of that kid that won’t stop moving
The one that won’t listen
The one the parents let run free
The one that might end up dead
Afraid of speeding cars and car crashes
Of dying like Stella Blue
Of dying like my grandfather
Of driving a fucking car
Of everything that passes me
How he never looks at me
Of the guy that smells like shit
That I’m the one that smells like shit
I am afraid of falling in love
Of being heart broken
That this will make me die alone
Of that old guy with the roaming eyes
Who always sits next to me
When BART is empty
But I am not afraid of dying
I am not afraid of words
Of chocolate chip cookies, and indie music
Though I am afraid of not living
And only existing
In the end, I am also afraid of you,
But it’s okay
I have an irrational fear of everything
Even me
